With every up, there is a down. So why does it always take me by surprise? Maybe I should have read the signs better and not let myself indulge in self-pity.
Here’s how it went:
- Feeling rubbish. Sad and alone. Wishing I had someone that loved me at Christmas.
- Pick myself up with music – too loud and overstimulating
- Have a drink
- Have another drink
- Dance with the dog
- Have another drink
- Dance more with the dog
- Tantrum from big child
- Dance more with dog
- Burn dinner
- Put antlers on dog
- Dinner
- Tantrum from the small child
- Realise I’ve f’d up’d with some tickets
- Try to cancel them – fail
- Try to cancel payment – fail
- Kiss now calm children goodnight
- Start online shopping for fantasy date
- Realise I’m being a dick
- Feel shit
- Feel tired
- Write this
- Drink water
- Watch Netflix
- Realise I’m feeling very lonely and sad
- Get in bed… hoping tomorrow will be better
Welcome to my wonky brain.
Jaime Stenning - a life uncut 